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Light at the end of the tunnel

// April 30th, 2012 // Comments Off // Blog

I have been feeling a bit lost and wondering what direction to take everything recently, but I think I am beginning to see where I should head. In fact I am now getting very positive about the future.

I am hoping to get more walking done and out on my bicycle. More videos and podcasts are planned so I am quite excited.

I have that the BBC will be getting in touch with me sometime this week regarding the presenter course I have managed to get myself on to, so that is exciting. I am also changing the format of the next batch of Bald Explorer videos. I want to get them made quicker and more often. They will be shorter and covering a whole host of interesting places.

I think also now that the spring is here and the cold weather is finally disappearing, it raises the spirits and makes everyone happy and that cannot be a bad thing. The key is to keep busy and aim high. Fingers crossed that everything pans out the way I want over the next few weeks.

Fighting the Demons

// April 25th, 2012 // Comments Off // Blog

Recently I haven’t been as proactive as normal. I have been tweeting disturbing comments on Twitter and generally making a misery of myself.

I do not suffer with clinical depression in anyway, but I do get down and emotional drained. There are days, I sure we all have, when things seem not to be working, life is tougher than normal, smiling is a bit of an effort and being agreeable is tricky. I am there at the moment.

Friends and family, fans and colleagues are keen to remind me that I have much to live for or to be proud of. The children, the videos, podcasts, the past achievements and so on. Yes that is of course true. These lovely people also can tell you there is always someone else worse off than you and naturally that is very true. I don’t think I have forgotten that nor misunderstood that fact. And while all of that is true it doesn’t immediate make me lift up from my misery and leap out of bed to determine to carry on. (I do that anyway, in spite of feeling low!)

The demon I struggle with most is knowing how to proceed. I am aware that I am getting older and my career hasn’t started. I know many people in television land who have had a illustrious career by now and have left the industry at my age. I have old friends, people I grew up with, who are in the business, getting on and doing great things. I am not really in contact with them now or have the same things in common any more, but I look at them and I cannot help feeling jealous, resentful and even envious that they have had such a success and I am still here in the fringes, unable to get in.

That is life of course and I am not stupid enough not to realize that. It is just damn frustrating.

But what is more frustrating is when many of my fans, viewers, listeners and friends and family agree that I have something, should be working within the television/film making industry, should be making more videos like the Bald Explorer, should be allowed to hone my skills, but that I cannot find anyway to achieve that.

If I were totally crap at something, as I am at speaking languages, football, opera, etc then naturally I would soon loose interested, move on to something else and find a new career. I often wish I was crap at entertainment, film making and so on because then I could move on.

The stuck in the mud situation also begins to make me question my abilities and start to question how good I am and whether I ought move on and stack shelves for a living.

That said, I am looking forward to bouncing back – but it does seem more difficult these days.

It will happen and I will get there. I am not feeling sorry for myself, just frustrated at not being able to work in the chosen field and one I could contribute in and make a difference.

Okay, time to move forward!

Presenting at the BBC

// April 6th, 2012 // Comments Off // Blog


I am thrilled to have received a phone call yesterday to congratulate me on my success on getting through to a place on a top quality presenting course run by the BBC.

A few months a go, at the beginning of 2012 in fact, I was advised to go for a presenters course that would be sponsored by the BBC to seek new presenters. This presumably was an equal opportunities initiative and aimed at disabled people. I was very hesitant about applying at first because although I suppose technically I am disabled by the fact that I have had to loose an eye and have no vision on my left side (and as a result do occasionally bump into little old ladies in Morrisons) I didn’t feel terribly unable to work normally.

However, I got in touch with the department running the scheme and asked them if they thought I qualified and they said yes, absolutely. At the end of the day, the BBC and the license payer want great presenters and often the smallest disability can put interviewees off from taking part or putting themselves forward. This is an opportunity for anyone with something ‘different’ to proudly say I would like to have a chance.

I had to send a detailed email about myself, likes, hobbies, work experience and background and a short video of myself presenting something. Naturally I sent a clip from the Bald Explorer. It must have worked because I was then shortlisted for an audition.

Last month I nervously travelled up to London to the Wood Lane digital city buildings and presented myself to the people running the auditions. As soon as I entered the building I was became, calm, totally relaxed and very confident. I was warmly welcomed by all the staff and flew through the audition.

I confess I was totally in my element. I felt so at home in the BBC studio with the commissioning editors and other senior executives watching me. They viewed a few pieces I had to do to camera, and although I cocked on of them up, I carried on as if it were ‘live’ and found my place in the script and rattled on to the end. Thanks to endless Vobes Show podcasts for that I am sure. After the performing came the questions and answers, which again I felt most comfortable with and demonstrated my passion for the medium of television and the genre of history and heritage. It was fabulous fun.

Something must have worked as yesterday I received a call from one of the executives informing me that I had been selected and had a place with nine others on this professional and highly rated presenters course. More details to come after Easter apparently, but in the meantime I am dancing on air.

Happy Now? Bad service from Ask

// February 21st, 2012 // Comments Off // Blog


My sister had come to visit whom I hadn’t seen for many years and we decided to celebrate with a visit to Ask in Warwick St, in Worthing taking my two teenage children with us. Initially the service was adequate and pretty average, although the prices reflected on the menu were a little high. So I expected that the food would be something special.

I ordered the spaghetti bolognese as I was in the mood for something safe and filling. The portion was quite small, not much bigger than a starter size, the plate was cold and consequently the food wasn’t very hot. It wasn’t especially tasty, but there wasn’t anything intrinsically wrong with it other amount and temperature. Initially I didn’t make a fuss as it was a family affair and we all had our meals at the same time and we wanted to eat together.

After the meal and when we came to pay I mentioned these facts to the waitress mainly to give feedback. She looked blankly at me and simply stated, ‘But you ate it’. Yes I I ate it, I was rather hoping to eat more of it, but there wasn’t much and it was tepid.

I wasn’t overly wanting to make too much of a fuss, but instead any apology and any attempt to appease me, she went on the defensive. Because of that, I then asked perhaps if she might reflect my dissatisfaction in the price. Eventually she marched off and came back begrudgingly having removed the cost of the item from the bill and slapping it down on the table she asked ‘Happy now?’

Needless to say any thought of returning to that establishment had vanished from my mind.

Working on the next Script

// November 8th, 2011 // Comments Off // Blog

I think I am finally on track with the script I have been working on for the next Bald Explorer video I am producing. After a few false starts, I am finally finding my feet with this series. With luck and good weather, when I come to film this episode, it will be more coherent than the previous ones. Famous last words of course.

I am slightly worried about the potential for snow. I don’t want that ruining my continuity. Snow is all very well, but if you are filming scenes with the stuff and you need to go back and take pick up shots and then its not there, that can be problematical.

Also, another thing I want to avoid is the Christmas decorations all over the place. That really dates a production, especially if it is not released during that season or relevant to the religious festival.

Today’s overcast and dark low cloud wet weather was grim and I am glad I wasn’t out filming in any of that!

Beer Show and Friends…

// November 6th, 2011 // Comments Off // Blog


My friend James Hastell, or Jimmy to his friends, popped over yesterday to the Beach Hut studio to record another of our crazy beer shows. Its always good to spend time with your friends. I enjoy the company of Jimmy and also Steve Pegram and we often have a laugh and a joke.

I am looking forward to working on new Bald Explorer projects and other filming/performing/podcasting related things this month. It would be nice if the weather brightens up, but that’s more than we can hope for this time of year I suppose.

My Sunday starts early with a little reading, housework and uploading of podcasts, then to see my father for a coffee. The afternoon is time to focus on the projects and also get a little study done too.

A Day of Fun!

// November 2nd, 2011 // Comments Off // Blog

I had a lovely day out with friends today, good old Paul Stoneman and James Hastell and together we managed to have a few beers, enjoy a coffee and munch a light lunch.

We used to do this a lot more than we have recently, which is a shame, but never the less it was great to catch up. I don’t get out with friends as often as I know I should. I am often reading researching or working on projects. If not that then I am working on the corporate videos that pay my bills. So it was great to abandon the work for once and take some time to relax and talk a complete load of nonsense.

Thanks chaps. We shall have to make another appointment in the not too distance future to try a few more beers and go for another lunch.

A walk along Worthing Seafront

// November 2nd, 2011 // Comments Off // Blog

Sometimes to get away from the four walls of the office and to find inspiration I take to the promenade along Worthing’s quiet seafront. The light today was rather lovely so I couldn’t resist taking a quick snap with the Blackberry phone and sending it up to Twitpic as well as here.

Its been another day of trying to find the way to go with the next Bald Explorer and falling short. As I wondered along the seafront I realised my problem is that I am trying too hard. An idea began to uncurl itself from the dark recesses of my mind and possible a glimmer of light has started to shine on the next episode of the curious bald one. I hope so. I cannot bare the frustration of it all.

Shopping Centre Distorys its Heritage

// July 26th, 2011 // Comments Off // Blog

The Shropshire Star carried a story about plans for a new development in the centre of Shrewsbury.

http://www.shropshirestar.com/news/2011/07/15/video-view-of-shrewsbury-riverside-shopping-plans/

I am a traditionalist and I hate these new developments that do not pay attention to a towns heritage. So I made the following comments:


I am a visitor to the wonderful market town that is Shrewsbury. Further more I am planning to make a film about the place. In doing so I have started to read and research the history of this incredible and unique community.

It seems to me that the council made a terrible mistake when they knocked down the old market hall and rebuilt the 1960′s version. The modern way is to steamroller through the historic and beauty of the town, not just this one, but most of Britain, all in the supposed name of progress. Yet when asked, people aspire live older Georgian houses because they are spacious, gorgeous to look at, have character and likely to stand the test of time.

The modern out of town rabbit hutches look old, dated and ugly already and they are only up to 50 years old.

Improving the town is one thing, but destroying the character with cheaper building materials and naff futuristic designs is quite another. What looks sexy and exciting now with all its glass and curves will look dated and old hat in 20 years – just as the 60′s development did.

If you must rebuild, then make a real investment and keep the character and style of the town with a Tudor or Georgian look. Sweeping glass and ‘green’ building materials are not going to attract the tourists and their much needed revenue into the town.

Too many towns now look the same with their hideous ‘future’ look. Don’t loose your unique identity Shrewsbury. Its what makes you a fabulous place to visit.

Why not build more traditional timber framed houses/shops – that’s a very green material after all the ones you have left have lasted over 400 years. How many of the modern 60′s to present day constructions will last that long, eh?

Walking with an aching foot.

// July 10th, 2011 // Comments Off // Blog

There is a beautiful stretch of Shropshire Hills called The Lawley. It’s an unusual name and is a peculiar promontory jutting out of the ground alone approximately 1240 feet high. You certainly get a fabulous panoramic view when walking along its humped back with vistas across the flat plains of Shropshire’s fabulous countryside to the Long Mynd, the Wrekin and other surrounding hills in the deep distance. It’s particularly beautiful.

Harriet and I hiked along the full length of its base, which must be a couple of miles and then clambered up the slow assent starting from the north end, through the small glade of I think Beech trees and onwards towards the summit. The weather was very much on our side. While other parts of the country were drenched in down pours and surrounded in grey clouds, the lucky people of the North West Midlands we enjoying a near cloudless blue sky and delightfully warm sunshine.

I had driven up early on this Saturday morning, leaving as I usually do when I see my lady friend at 6am. It is of course a great time to be motoring along as the road is not hogged by commercial traffic racing at break neck speeds to make their deadlines, deliver their cargo or make the all important meetings. Although there was traffic and people were still traveling faster than they really needed to, there was much less of it and on patches of the M40, I simply had the motorway all to myself.

I spent a few hours in the delightful market town of Shrewsbury, doing what now has been a bit of a ritual that of purchasing freshly roasted coffee beans from Aroma. It’s very much the iconic independent shop complete with its many tantalising glass jars of mysterious coffee beans from different parts of the equator displayed in row upon row on its shelves behind the long counter at the front. All freshly roasted within the last week and expertly weighed, ground, if desired and packed by hand in front of your eyes by a lady in her middling years who has a cheery smile and welcoming demeanour.

More coffee was purchased in a newly opened cafe and the guests of a wedding studied as they paraded themselves in the street dressed to the nines in their best and probably brand newly bought outfits, kissing, laughing and joking in a pre-ceremonial drink feast before heading off to one of the nearby churches to watch the union of two of them as they tie their knots and make unreasonable vows to one another.

For lunch, Harriet and I decided to drive a little south of Shrewsbury to a pub we frequent fairly regularly just off the A49 just short of Church Stretten. It’s called the Horseshoe and obviously was very much an old pub in traditional style up until a few years ago when it was revamped and now has a much more modern feel about the place. The decor is not entirely to my liking, favouring as I do the old dusty low beamed flag stoned quiet country public house of ancient times, but the food is good, the owners are nice and Harriet loves it.

Fortified with ham, egg and chips and pint of summer ale from a Shropshire brewery I was very much ready for a walk and climb and the food was digesting and we basked in the sun that I suggested to my lady friend that The Lawley might be the answer to exercise plans.

Now what I haven’t mentioned is that my left ankle is causing me a lot of pain. It’s as if I have knocked it severely and bruised it, but I don’t remember banging hard and there is no outward sign of swelling or discolouring so I am not sure that is what giving me the jip. I wondered if I have in some way pulled a muscle because if I force myself to put the full weight of my body in it and ‘open’ it in the normal way as I walk and flex it the pain slowly eases. It never completely goes away, but does become progressively reduced.

The idea was that a medium length walk and mild climb might actually do the ankle a world of good. I have to confess this theory was right, although as I started off hobbling along the path way at the base of the Lawley there was slight trepidation on my part that Harriet would have to resort to having my legs around her waist as she dragged my useless body along the bumpy ground back to the car when the shear weight of my body was too much for me to stand let alone walk.

In the event, the trip to the top of this splendid volcanic mini mountain was more than successful with the pain dissipating and my ability to completely forget the unfortunate injured ankle and enjoy the fresh Shropshire area and stunning scenery.

Of course, I may well pay for it all in the hours and days to follow!